I’m Doomed

I’ve always tried to do everything by myself, ahead of time, being perfect, ideal. I have siblings and I have always tried to make them believe that I was the best they could ever have. But guess what? The day I met Jesus, I found out that I was completely wrong about many things…

Since then, I started seeing my plans falling apart, my aspirations be nothing less than a simple glimpse of imagination, and my goal to be the best sister... Definitely the worst thing ever. I failed. I lost that battle. I was simply trying to be reigning over my own life. So, when you try to make Jesus as “King of kings and Lord of lords” as the Bible puts it, there’s a conflict.

In a word? I'm doomed! It’s over, this kind of battle couldn’t work. And I lost. Well, I won because God in my life is inherently he best choice of my life, but I lost the battle I was fighting.

So, I started to get ready, because whenever I get to meet Him face to face, I am not planning on telling Him that anything or anybody else was reigning over me, not even myself. That’s quite tricky, because I loved planning things, and God could give me promises, dreams and all of these things and in the end, I’d still try to make it by myself.

I am doing a Bible Study with some women from my church. It is called “You are the Girl for the Job” and it starts with quitting trying to be this ideal and perfect person. Because this is not what God called you to be! Yes, He does want you to be a better person, but only according to His plan, His purposes and standards. You are meant to be you, and nobody else. This statement is for everyone, not only for women or girls.

So, yes I'm doomed, and so are you. Above all, if you keep on trying to be perfect. I have a proposition for you: try to lower every standard you set for yourself. Instead, seek the ones God set for you. The Bible says “On his robe and on his thigh he has a name written, King of kings and Lord of lords.” (Revelation 19:16) and this means that the only one who should set your agenda, your purposes, your dreams… Should be God.

I know, it sound a bit manipulative, but when you know God is the one who created you, and made you because He loves you, it makes a it more sense I think. Accept that your purposes are not the best ones if they are not in accordance to God’s. Accept that your plans are not worth it. But instead, take a step of faith, believe that God knows what He plans for you, expects from you and where He wants you to end up.

So, I will gladly admit that I am doomed, because I want Jesus to be my Lord and Savior, and not only one of these two titles. Simply because I know this is the best for me. My own goals are far from the ones God gives me, and I believe I will become a better person just because I let Him live in me, instead of clothing myself in pride. It will make the whole situation a lot easier, my presence far more bearable for anyone who has known me before and my ego calm down at least a little bit, allowing me to become more Christlike every single day.

Have a blessed week, and do not hesitate to let us know what you think or your struggles so that we could support you in prayer,
With all of my affection,
Do