Daily Struggles
Hey!
I started this blog in January of 2019. I had prayed on this subject for months. I looked feverishly to understand what God wanted of me through this project. And, when I started, I understood that I needed to be as transparent as possible.
The truth is that there are certain parts of my life that I chose not to develop, simply because I wanted to wait for the right moment and do things correctly regarding specific subjects. As they say, don’t count chickens before they hatch.
But that doesn’t stop for some elements of my life to cross; what I would like to talk to you about today is one of them. I will admit that I flinched a bit when I understood that I needed to write about this. However, I believe that God alone can give me the strength that I need for it, through Jesus Christ who strengthens me.
Without further ado, let us begin.
For a little while, the difference between “purity” and “not sinning” has been on my mind a lot. I could comprehend that the Lord had something to tell me about this subject. Yet, time kept passing; sometimes the thought would come back to me just to disappear in the wind again. But because it came back to my mind, every morning, I would try to ask God to help me to honor him in all of the parts of my life, to help stay completely pure for Him and to glorify Him at all times.
And almost everyday, I go to sleep, asking forgiveness to God because I fell again, in the exact same situation.
I more or less really realized the problem a few months ago. So I started talking about it with a very close friend, who lives over 6,000 kilometers from my house, who has helped me a lot, but who cannot fight this fight with me. I also spoke about it with someone very close to me here in Canada. But it would seem that every conversation ends up quite heated, as we don't have the same point of view, and my position could often seem like a judgment towards this person.
One of the problems is that this struggle happens in my head before anything else. These are thoughts that do not honor God, and do not help me move forward. This fight is personal, my position is based on my relationship with God, and I can't blame anyone for thinking differently from me. It is one of the beauties, but also the difficulties, of being around people who are all impacted by God in different ways.
If I'm completely honest, I believe this fight arises in my daily life. Every day is difficult, and lately not a day has gone by that I haven't had to ask God for forgiveness because my thoughts have not honored him in this particular area.
I had this “revelation” recently: “God is the one who fights for me. Having faith in Him means that I believe He IS, but also that He fights for me and that He can overcome. I still have a lot of work to do, a lot of submission work to do, before I can claim victory over myself.
However, I know the fight is worth it. The Bible says “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” (Proverb 4:23). In my case, these thoughts that do not glorify God started to enter my heart.
The life of a servant of God, of a believer in Jesus Christ, who died and rose again for us, is a life of daily struggle, I believe I have already told you. But the truth is, none of this is in vain. Victory is living eternity with the Savior of the world, our Creator, the One who loves us with unparalleled love.
So if you are struggling in any area of your life right now, I encourage you to hold on, to lean on Jesus. And when you fall, believe that God is good to forgive you, but follow this command of Jesus: “Go now and leave your life of sin” (John 8:11).
May the Lord of heaven and earth bless you and keep you abundantly,
Do.